Man Do I Feel Dumb....But.....

Just finished my series of neuro-pshyc tests and boy oh boy it was three sessions of torture! These tests were performed because of my memory and cognitive difficulties and I'm thinking I must have flunked big time because I sure enough felt stupid. I can't even think of an example of any of the questions/situations that I had no clue the answers to but sure should have I am sure.

So even though I felt dumb as a brick I do feel better in that he sees a definite pattern in regards to my ole head. He says it is definitely the left hemisphere that is mush (not his words-mine) and my ability to learn and recall has been impaired. He says it would be his guess it is from the chemo as opposed to any thing else because it is so one sided. David and I go for the full results the second week in May. Doc says I can bring anyone along with me that I would like to hear the results and I said no no no....don't need anyone else hearing how much my brain has mushed!

The process itself, although painful and humiliating, was very interesting. And really very helpful to have someone, a professional, be able to tell with testing that something is amiss....it is not my imagination. So at our next appointment I will have to ask if this can regenerate, will it deteriorate etc etc etc. Whatever-at least I am here to tell the story huh? Perhaps one day soon this will be a recognized and talked about chemo side affect. I am betting once my oncologist receives the report he will study it and be more aware.

Speaking of my onc, tomorrow he should have more information in regards to the Tamoxifen and the ovaries. He had asked some of his colleagues from Jacksonville Florida but wanted to also ask the folks at Rochester as well. He is one of those guys that really likes to know everything that he can about something before he makes a recommendation....and I guess I have really come to appreciate that. After all, this is my life he is dealing with.

In a week and a half we will gain a new daughter in law. It seems like just a year and a half ago that they were starting to plan and here we are almost to the wedding day.

Ending today with shots of the first flowers that I spotted in our gravel pit on a walk with the dogs. I think there are Lilies of the Field and Jack in the Pulpit about to bloom as well but there are way too many wood ticks out now to go back...maybe next week without the dogs I will go to get pictures of those-I don't like waking up at 2am with a tick crawling on my neck and hand!

Oh I started a new knitting class...I am now learning how to knit socks. I don't wear socks...ever even in the winter. But these are so danged nice I may just start! Pictures of my first completed pair will surely be posted on the blog. Next week I learn how to make a 'Top Down Sweater'. Fun fun fun. It may take me 6 times longer than anyone else to make something but I don't care!