And I am not talking about SAT's or midterms!
About a month ago I felt a funny little deal in my neck. It actually feels like a vein that is just a bit large. At my oncological appointment a week ago I mentioned it to Doc C. He felt it and felt it and felt it. Thought it was nothing but wanted me to see my surgeon to get his opinion.
Now I really like my surgeon and never mind chatting with him and I trust him completely. But I totally understand now why the docs don't run every test in the world on you after having had successful cancer treatments. There was a time right after my chemo that I would feel this or have that ache and would have preferred Doc C to do whatever test needed to rule out the big C return. He refused saying that there are too many false positives etc etc etc....AND running unnecessary tests just make a person nervous for no reason.
Now I get that whole way of thinking. I was not a bit wigged out about this funny little deal that I had been feeling until my surgeon walked in the room and began to palpitate the nodule. He didn't think that it was anything to worry about but wanted me to have an ultra-sound just to be sure.
I got in right away for the ultra sound and became even more nervous. Lots of self talk going on let me tell you......'I don't think it is anything but if it is we will deal with it' yadda yadda yadda. The tech begins the procedure. I ask her how it all looks and of course she says that she is not at all qualified to give an opinion...Ok so that adds to my nervousness. She then takes way longer than what I felt it should be taking. She finally asks me if I am hanging in there....and I say yes I am but that she is making me nervous. She wonders why so I just tell her that it is taking so long so I am wondering if she is finding something and needs to look further etc. Well of course she says no no no. She just wanted to get more pics because the little nodule is so close to the thyroid gland. So she did a full thyroid scan or some silly thing. After it was completed she then asked me to stay put until she talks with the radiologist...about now I am jumping out of my skin thinking...Ok here it comes.... She came back in to say that I could go. The radiologist was pleased with the pictures (still didn't make me feel any better as pleased with the pictures only means that she got good images...). She did say though that he stated that it was 'unremarkable' and that my surgeon (Doc D) would call me with the results in a day or two.
Now I am no longer nervous and am sure that it is nothing...but Doc C was right...running too many tests is too nerve racking if you really don't need them. Crap, I barely thought about cancer until today....now that the scan is done I can just quit thinking about it again so there!
OK on with life and after Doc D calls to tell me it is nothing I will blog that as well....I am actually more concerned (and really crabby) about this big huge honkin zit that has appeared on my cheek...damn thing pulsates and I want to squeeze it I do!
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